It Dislikes My Actions

Yesterday, some things became even more strange. I've been drinking the tea regularly so that my vision is normal, but during a couple of my classes, while either I or someone else was talking, I could hear a voice speaking over them.

Confused, I looked around the room but no one was speaking other than the person who was talking in the first place before the other voice. Besides, the voice didn't sound very human. It was deep and intimidating and sent shivers down my spine. Was this The Rake, trying to make me suffer after fixing the vision problem? I'm not sure.

I have a feeling that it didn't like me finding a cure for my vision problems.

I shall continue my research on cures. In the meantime, please submit any help of any kind. Much appreciated.

A Cure For My Vision

Last night, I did not witness The Rake in it's usual spot in my room. I hadn't seen it at all. This was just as frightening as seeing it, because I wasn't sure as to what was going to happen. Although, I did manage to sleep another night.

The next morning I was researching visionary cures. One article said how placing used teabags onto your eyes can help because of the relaxing leaves. So I found some black current tea in a cupboard in the kitchen and made myself some tea. This morning, my vision was pretty distorted; the room kept spinning, people's faces became contorted with anger and rage and just overall, an insane way at looking at the world.

So I made the tea and took a sip. Nothing spectacular happened yet so I figured I had to actually put the teabags on my eyes for anything to happen. It started to happen when I was half done my cup. All of a sudden, I noticed that the room seemed normal again, I looked to my mother and her face was calm, not angry. Everything was normal. I have finally found a cure for the visionary problems that The Rake placed upon me. 

I experimented with green tea and felt no effect. White tea, same thing. Only black tea seems to do the trick.

So to whoever is having visionary distortions due to The Rake or whatever, DRINK BLACK TEA. Any kind of black tea. It doesn't have to be black current. I will continue my research on the body transfiguration. The tea seemed to place no effect on that at all. 

If anyone has any ideas, please inform me. We all need to know. We all must escape.

Blinding Darkness

The Rake has been continually distorting my vision. I look to people and I see them glare, when in actuality, they aren't. Every hallway I walk down, I feel like I'm going to fall over because the room begins to spin. But it seems that this creature has also been messing with my body.

I woke up one morning and stumbled into the bathroom. I glanced at the mirror and took a good look at my reflection. My veins seemed to be more noticeable and even though I get enough sleep each night because The Rake puts me to sleep, I have dark circles under my eyes and I've become even paler. My hair has also somewhat bleached itself and my body seems frail and uncoordinated but still strong. 

But the most eerie thing that has happened with my body is that my eyes are no longer blue, instead they are grey. I m still taken back by these changes. My friends ask me if I've become sick, people stare at me in the hallways wondering if I have a disease.

No... I've become a monster... The Rake has done something to me that is causing me to change into some sort of super being. I've become stronger and faster. It my take some time for this change to complete.

But I'm afraid... I don't want to die. What exactly is happening? I need help. I need someone to understand. I don't know what exactly is going to happen to me... 

Something Is Changing In Me

Since I am still expected to attend high school, I attended the first day of the new year. Now way back when I chose my courses and such, I was actually excited about them, but now it's just another class. 

I walked the hallways in the morning just in the sake of wandering and every time I passed someone, I found that each of them was glaring at me with a murderous intent written across their faces. I wondered at first if I had done something. Then I thought about the possibility of The Rake distorting my vision.

It may be making me think that everyone is hating me. Uh... Paranoia, that's it. That's what The Rake has given me. I'm being paranoid about the people around me. It's making me feel like I can't trust them.

I didn't know that The Rake was capable of doing this. I'm getting even more scared. I'm not safe anywhere, it seems. I fear what sort of thing it'll do to me next. I just want it to go away. I never wanted this. I never did. 

I'm slowly going insane.

I saw it again last night.

The Rake outstretched his arm and I just focused on it's glistening eyes. Then I immediately fell asleep because that was the last thing I saw before my dream.

This dream felt so vivid though. I could have easily mistaken it for real life, but I just knew it wasn't reality.

I sit in a grungy room staring at the wall. The walls were concrete and the door was a type of metal, but it had dents in it from someone trying to get out. Then the door opens and I crawl out into the dusty hallway. I realize that I'm underground because the walls are dirt. I'm in a tunnel. I pick myself up and stumble along leaning on the wall until I find another door. I open the door and the dirt room is covered in blood spatters. Dead bodies lay strewn across the floor, their entrails gutted out of them. I gulp, trying not to vomit. There's a door on the other end of the room, and I figure that there's no other way but to walk among the bodies.

I step into the room and feel blood squelch under my feet. The feeling sends shivers up my spine but I continue on. The smell infiltrates my lungs, making me feel like I'm drowning in the stench of rotting flesh. Finally I make it across the room. I push open the next door and all I could see was complete and utter darkness. I begin to wish that I had a light of some sort. Regardless, I enter the next room anyway. As I take my first step, I feel weird.

I'm falling. 

Then I woke up in a sweat. 

This is getting out of hand. I want to stop this all. I need to talk to The Rake once more.

The Hell It Resides In

I've been losing my focus on everything. It's always on my mind and I cannot escape from it. I still don't know why the fuck it's here and not brutally murdering me. I can't exactly have a normal conversation anymore because my thoughts always drift off. I'm wondering if this is some new form of torture that the Rake's decided to use on people.

Every night it crouches itself near the corner of my room and watches me. Every time I see it, fresh blood drips from it's lips. I always wonder who or what that blood belongs to. It's eyes continue to pierce me with it's intense glare. Why me?

I know this probably sounds cliche like in a horror movie or whatever, but I seriously want to know why it watches ME. WHY me? I don't understand why, but I'm too scared to say anything, in case I trigger it to kill  me or something. I can't really tell anyone close to me, in fear of them not believing me and thinking I'm crazy. I'm not crazy, I swear! 

Someone, anyone, please help me figure out what I must do in order to stop all of this. To escape this monster. To escape the Rake. I want it to leave me alone. Forever...